I Cried Yesterday

19 Mar

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Actually, I cried the day before yesterday but I wrote this post yesterday so the title was correct for yesterday’s yesterday but not for today.  Anyway, me crying at all except at the end of Love Actually is such a rare event, I felt I had to blog about it.

As you must know, because I’ve bored you to death about it for months now, Spud is playing Judas in his school production of Godspell.  The first night is tomorrow tonight.  I can’t get the songs out of my head and as I was preparing his sandwiches for tonight’s tea between tweaking-rehearsal and performance, I sang Beautiful City to myself.  I suspected I might be allowing it to take over my life when I came to the line, We can build a city of man and sang, We can build a city of ham…


Yesterday (‘s yesterday) was the dress rehearsal.  The Hub is an excellent photographer and took some great pics of the last three school productions Spud starred in (no bias here, honest).  He gave them to Spud’s drama teacher and she loved them and asked if he would go along to yesterday’s yesterday’s dress rehearsal to take photos of this production.

The Hub has M.E. so of course he needed his loving and supportive wife along to hold the spare camera batteries.  The fact that I got a sneak preview of the show was purely coincidental.


We had front row seats and we needed them, because my heart swelled with so much pride it took up all of the space between the audience and the stage.

I know he’s my son and I’m biased and all that rubbish, but Spud was fantastic.  He began as a happy, hopeful man and changed over two hours to anger and betrayal via confusion and doubt.  

He sang, with music and without.

He cried in Jesus’ arms the moment before he left to betray him.  He sobbed on the floor after the crucifixion.  

He was totally believable.

IMG_5205smallTeachers made a point of coming up to tell me how good he was and how he should pursue acting as a career.  But better than that, the director told me that, for all of his talent, he is a lovely, lovely boy and she hopes her own son will grow up to be just like him.

Can you blame me for blubbing?


29 Responses to “I Cried Yesterday”

  1. judyt54 March 19, 2014 at 15:11 #

    having trouble posting comments here test this is only a test


  2. judyt54 March 19, 2014 at 15:13 #

    This is all your fault, Tilly. Im sitting here with leaky eyes and sniffling, and I don’t even KNOW Spud…

    Thank you.


  3. Grannymar March 19, 2014 at 16:28 #

    You are entitled! Can you please pass me a tissue, mine are all in a soggy mess and useless! Very Well Done young man Spud!


  4. slpmartin March 19, 2014 at 16:34 #

    Sounds like you have good reason to be proud.


  5. sharechair March 19, 2014 at 16:43 #

    Blub all you want …. here, there and everywhere. You have every reason to be so proud! My only complaint is that I live too far away to attend the production! But through you I plan to claim the right, in a few years from now, to proudly announce that I “knew him when”.


  6. laurieanichols March 19, 2014 at 16:55 #

    As I was reading your post about Spud, I had tears of pride welling up in my eyes and tears of joy for you because I know exactly how you are feeling, it is an extraordinary feeling isn’t it. 🙂 Hooray for Spud! Hooray for the Hub, excellent photographer and hooray for Tilly excellent chronicler! 😀


  7. katharinetrauger March 19, 2014 at 17:19 #

    We saw Godspell in college, when it first came out, again at its 20th anniversary, we took all our kids to see it, some of them being nearly grown, and recently at its 40th, we took a grandson, as it was his birthday treat. I blubbered just because it was well-done. Cannot even imagine if my own kid had been in it and doing so well. Sighs. Tears, here, of course. ❤ K


  8. viveka March 19, 2014 at 17:21 #

    Love the song …. beautiful!!!! I would had been proud as a peacock if my son had in a play … and what I seen of Spud before from your post … has he been into acting before. Congratulation to Spud for his performance and to you his mum. Just let him follow his heart …


  9. http://vivinfrance.wordpress.com March 19, 2014 at 17:28 #

    Hooray for everyone. Tonight’s the night, though when everyone explodes with joy and pride.


  10. Terry March 19, 2014 at 17:47 #

    I am so excited for your family!!!!


  11. Al March 19, 2014 at 17:54 #

    That is awesome and you would be criminally remiss if you didn’t shout this from the rooftops. What a handsome young man he is….and with talent too, why shouldn’t he become a famous actor? Great post! That said, now I can concentrate on trying to understand your first sentence.


  12. misswhiplash March 19, 2014 at 18:13 #

    How wonderful to think that I might be aquainted with the mother of a famous actor to be…it is over whelming…can I have his autograph before fame reaches him ..it could then be worth loads of dosh….will he be using a name other than Spud?…well done Mr Spud we are all so proud of u


  13. Janie Jones March 19, 2014 at 18:20 #

    Congratulations to you and to the Spud.


  14. Elaine - I used to be indecisive March 19, 2014 at 21:41 #

    Yes, you are definitely entitiled to blub. It must be one of the best accolades, for someone to say they hope their child grows up to be like yours. 🙂


  15. Pseu March 19, 2014 at 22:39 #

    Mash it up, Harry!


  16. SchmidleysScribbling March 19, 2014 at 22:48 #

    Yes, he’s a beautiful boy. And he has great hair too.


  17. Tom Merriman March 19, 2014 at 23:32 #

    Blub away, Tilly.. you’re allowed!


  18. sarsm March 19, 2014 at 23:41 #

    Well done Spud for making your mum cry. OK that doesn’t quite sound right…

    The pictures look very impressive. And I think it’s great they have microphones – ours have to do without which is quite tough in a crowded hall.


  19. jmgoyder March 20, 2014 at 02:25 #

    My eyes are leaking now!


  20. Rorybore March 20, 2014 at 03:20 #

    How can I be so proud of a boy I didn’t even birth!!?? let alone know? This is so so wonderful – I’m so happy for him, and you…..and just brag away. Don’t leave out any wonderful detail!


  21. McGuffy Ann March 20, 2014 at 13:28 #

    You should be proud. Godspell is my very favourite musical, and a very meaningful one. You are a good mom.


  22. benzeknees March 20, 2014 at 23:42 #

    Best reason in the world to blub! Take 2 Maltesers & call me in the morning!


  23. bluebee March 21, 2014 at 06:40 #

    “I know he’s my son and I’m biased and all that rubbish, but Spud was fantastic.” I suspect that, in spite of who’s delivering the compliment, it’s true. 😉


  24. Three Well Beings March 21, 2014 at 07:05 #

    I’d have blubbered all over the place, too! Naturally you’re bursting with pride, and this must be very exciting for Spud, too. He obviously has talent, and yet, like you, to be told that he is a wonderful person, is equally valuable. This was a joy-filled post. 🙂 (And I cry every time through Love, Actually. I make a point of watching it every Christmas).


  25. siggiofmaine April 1, 2014 at 07:43 #

    You can blubber your eyes out til the cows come home… what a darling post. MuMs don’t often get to admit to being publicly adoring about their sons…thanks for sharing.
    Peace and love.
    Ps It is April fools day in the States…can you believe we got an “unannounced” snow storm with strong winds ! Then, when it stops, the temp is supposed to go up into the 40 F … I’m not in a flood zone thank goodness but the snow and wind found me for sure.
    Hope you have a wonderful day…♥


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